So basically I felt like SCREAMING at my mum earlier.
Something along the lines of;
"When I came to speak to you about it you were playing on your computer!" she said to me.
My response? "I was writing a letter"
"To who?!" she asked Me
"it doesn't matter now...it's in the past!" I replied
When it does actually matter but if I told her who it was to/what it was about, I doubt she'd care & probably just laugh at me.
And she wonders why I don't tell her anything.
Anyway....COME ON if you come to speak to someone & they're quite obviously engrossed in something which (unbeknown to her took me more-or-less 2 months to get up the courage write and get in my own mind 'perfect') you DO NOT distract them, especially as i'd been writing it from like I dunno 2AM?!
ANYWAY....when the fuck has she ever asked me for MY opinion on ANYTHING, I usually get told whats happening, not asked.
Everything comes back to this (the letter I mean)...odd. I should stop caring so much but I can't help it unfortunately.
It's funny how the people that you live with don't know who you are at all & the people you barely know, know more-or-less everything about you.
- Location:Bed
- Mood:
awake - Music:Superstar - Tegan & Sara
I guess I kind of lost the need to rant about stuff but a lot of stuff has happend this year so far, it's only bloody April!
I'm not going to talk about whats happened though, I just want to know WHY people feel the need to have a go at someone when all they're doing is making themselves look pathetic and not giving any valid points/reasons for their accusations.
Fucking pointless and stupid if you ask me and I hope things get better for that person, he knows who he is & should know that whenever he needs someone to talk to, I'm always there.
I've changed A LOT this past year, mentally, physically and emotionally.
Some may say thats good, others may say thats bad....I, personally think it's good in some respects but the whole 'not eating' thing isn't hmm....but less about that.
The people I've met & made friends with over the recent months, have changed my views on certain things/people.
Like I never thought someone I absolutely detested in school would be one of my best & closest friends now & the people I was closest to in school don't really seem to give a shit now, unless they're bored or have nothing else to do or want something.
It's all "Ellie, I miss you!" when they want something from you (or when their drunk) and then you don't hear from them for months.
Some would say I've becom a bit of a bitch, I just think I'm being honest.
Afterall, honesty IS the best policy, not matter which way you look at it. I've never been one to lie.
Hmm....PR1 tonight, I've given up drinking for the time being while I sort my head out and that means I no longer get easily upset on nights out, so especially tonight, I shall be drinking coke.
Hopefully it's a good night & hopefully this time Simon wont drop me on my arse!
I'm going to wear a tie I bought as a belt, I got it from Topman for £3 (was meant to be £15 lol) on my shopping trip with Jamesy on Saturday.
I enjoy having weekends off, it's a pitty it doesn't happen that often :(
Happy Birthday Nick, I hope your day gets better.
Remember what I said to you about your brother, it's true you know :)
xxxx
Anywho...of to bed for me now, I'm shattered.
- Location:Bedroom
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Love Game - Lady Gaga
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